Rape the little teddy bear~

Long, very very long meme-like thing xDDD

2008-06-07T21:01:12Z

Kaaay, so here it goes XD

Basics

Name: Naoko? xD
Birthplace: Vratza
Current Location: Vratza
Heritage: Eh... nothing xD?
Eye Color: Green
Hair Color: Dark Blonde
Hair Length: Eh... past the showders xD
Height: about 160...
Weight: 44 kg xD
Figure: Skinny :D?
Righty or Lefty: Right-handed.
Zodiac Sign: Taurus
Introvert or extrovert: introvert
Meyers-Briggs Personality type: Er...?

Style

Clothing: baggy.. and tight... does that make sense xD?
Hair: messy xD
Music: Japanese Rock
Makeup: Black...
Body Art: Mmm... do you mean tattoos?
Car: I can't drive, and don't plan to.
Decor: decor... on what xD?

Right Now

Current mood: err.... dunno xD
Current music: Velvet Eden ^^
Current taste: ehh I taste the taste of a salad xD
Current hair: strange xD
Current clothes: shorts and Pijama top xDDDDDD
Current annoyance: the sound of the TV =_=
Current smell: the candle on my desk xD
Current longing: ... chocolate
Current desktop picture: Kaya =D
Current fingernail color: black. [wow... you could never guessed, huh =D]
Current likes: many things ^^
Current dislikes: even more things xDD
Current favorite article of clothing: my white gloves xD
Current favorite place to be: outside? xD
Current time you wake up in the morning: 7 AM =D
Current favorite word: "useless" xDD

What are you...

Thinking of: that I want a new cellphone.
Feeling: annoyance
Remembering: the past 2-3 years...
Doing: Typing xD
Planning: on wanting a new cellphone xD

What were you doing

1 hour ago: watching a football game.
1 day ago: writing at school xD
1 week ago: Can't remember xD
1 month ago: wishing for this month to come xDD
1 year ago: dying from the hot weather xD
5 years ago: writing my homework xD
10 years ago: playing with my dolls XDDD

Your favorite

Music: Japanese Rock, as I mentioned before.
Cartoon: .. make that anime - well, maybe Bleach ^^
Font: Some gothic hand-writings - nothing special really.
Color: Black.
Song: oh, oh, oh... a lot xD
Flavor: vanilla cake.
Scent: caramel xD
Magazine: GLB [..what did you expect xDD?]
TV Show: don't have any.... TV is over rated xD
Book: Tartuffe by Moliere
Movie: Hana Yori Dango... is that really a movie xD?
Language: Japanese.
Food: Asian
Beverage: Water and Lemon juice.
Fruit: Lemon
Vegetable: Tomato.
Season: Winter
Subject in School: Art and geography.
Weekend Activity: reading manga xD
Ice Cream Flavor: Vanilla and Chocolate.
Pizza toppings: ham... cheese... anything as long as it's not mushrooms... ewww >__<

Preferences

Cola or Other: Cola.
Coke or Pepsi: Coke ^^
Fried, Scrambled, or Poached: Fried xD~
Pancakes or Waffles: Pancakes.
Dogs or Cats: Cats
Coffee or Tea: Tea
Iced or Hot: Both ^^
Looking out the window or into the room: out the window.
One Pillow or Two: One... but I can't live without it xD
Chocolate or Vanilla: Both ^^
High Achiever or Easy-Going: High achiever xD
Single or Taken: Single xD
Pen or Pencil: Pen
Gloves or Mittens: mittens xD
Planned or Spontaneous: I like to make plans, but I like to do spontaneous things too ^^
Food or Candy: depends xD
Matches or a Lighter: lighter... as long as it's not thrown at me XDD
Typed or Handwritten: Typed is easier, but handwritten is pretty ^^
Walk or Run: Walk
Elevator or Stairs: Elevator... 'cause it's scary xD
Walk or Drive: walk
Facing into the restaurant or away from the other people: away from the baka people xD
Eating alone, with one friend, or with lots of friends: with one friend xD
Home or "Out": I prefer home, if my parents aren't here xD
Alone, with one friend, or with a group?: alone.. or with one friend xD

Who Would You Like To...

Hear From: Hiroyuki-kun.
Never Hear From Again: She knows who she is without me mentioning
Look Like: a pretty boy dressed as a lolita XD
Be Like: a pretty ~~gay~~ boy dressed as a lolita XDD?
Meet: Mana-sama ^^
Get to Know: no really, you have the habbit to ask similar things with diferent words XD - once again - Mana-sama
Learn from / Study With: learn from Hizaki-san ^^
Impress: once again, she knows who she is xD
Teach: no one... >_>

Do you...?

Have any tattoos (where?): Don't have any ^^
Have any piercings (where?): only 5 on the ears ^^
Have any scars: yeah...
Get along with your parents?: Ugh...
Get motion sickness: No, never happened before.
Think you're a health nut: in any means - no
Type with your fingers on the right keys: what O_o?
Play an instrument: dreamed to play piano when I was younger, now I want to play bass guitar, but I still don't do anything about it.
Play an instrument well: well... I think I said what I meant above.
Sleep with a stuffed animals: yes. two XDDD one bear [which reminds me of the one Shin-chan had] and an Elmo plushie, same as Mana's xD
Have a significant other: no...
Have a dream that keeps coming back: a lot of weird ones.
Believe there is life on other planets: Of course there is.
Read the newspaper: Rarely.
Read the comics: Very rarely.
Read the sports pages: No....
Check the weather forecast: Mmm... nope
Go to restaurants alone: Never.
Consider yourself tolerant of others: Not at all.
Like the taste of alcohol: Hate it...
Drink: nothing alcoholic
Smoke: No
Swear: 'course xD
Sing: Only when I'm alone XD
Sing in public: nuh-uh
Sing in the shower: No
Laugh: yeah.. who doesn't xD
Joke: yuppp
Read: ...books XDD?
Exercise: I'm 44 kg.. do you think I need to XD?
Diet: look at the answer above xD
Cook: Not one bit xD
Believe in astrology: ...crap xD
Read your horoscope: never xD
Believe in magic: depends on what kind XD
Believe in miracles: ... only when they happen to me xDD
Go to church: *pukes* xD
Have any secrets: of course... who's going to count xD?
Have any pets: No
Have any children: oh god no... and never going to xDDD
Have any brothers or sisters: Nope
Work: Nope xD
Have a college degree (or go to or plan to go to college): No.. and I don't plan to...
Chat to strangers who instant message you: No..
Talk to strangers on the bus: why would I do that xD?
Wear hats: Yeah, all the time.
Like yourself: No.
Wish on stars: Yes.
Like your handwriting: Sometimes ^^
Trust others easily: depends on the person...
Like puns: yeah...
Have a good sense of humor: maybe...
Take walks in the rain: yeah... it's wonderful ^___^

Do you prefer

Traveling: I like to travel.
Staying home: Home is the best place ^^
Going out: ... sometimes...
Cooking: Never xDD
Eating out: Rarely.
Entertaining at home: yes ^^
Large parties: Never...
Small parties where you know everyone: Rarely...
Quiet evenings with a few friends: Nope...
Being alone: All the time ^^

Leisure Time: Do you like to...

Read: yes ^^
Go out, anywhere!: sometimes...
Go dancing: Never ever xD
See a show: eh... what kind of show? xD
Rent a video: No.
Listen to music: all the time XD
Go for a walk: yes, it's relaxing ^^
Watch television: mm yeah...
Surf the web: every single day XD
Chat with friends online: yah xDDD
Meet people for coffee and conversation: Rarely...
Go to a party: nooope xD
Stay home: Hai hai ^^
...?: what a pretty question mark... xDD

Sports and recreation: Do you...

Jog: No.
Run: No.
Walk: yep :]
Ski: No.
Swim: Nooo
Play on a team: nooope
Play "pickup" games: nah...
Bowl: nuh-uh xD
Work Out: i've run out of "no" words xDDD
...?: even a prettier question mark xDDD

Creative outlets: Do you...

Paint or draw: Both ^^
Sculpt, do pottery, mold clay... Poetry :]
Build scale models: Nope...
Collect... (what?): Manga I guess xD
Write (what?): Fanfiction... songs...
Compose music: Only lyrics =D
Choreograph dances: nooo xD
Dance: never xD
Develop software: nope
Meditate: Nope
Daydream: all the time XDD
...?: I'm quite fed up with these xDDD

Have you ever...?

Eaten an entire box of Oreos: box of what xDDD?
Thought about eating an entire box of Oreos: whattt xDDD??
Baked a cake: yeah ^^
Cooked Thanksgiving Dinner for a group: Never
Eaten sushi: no.. and don't want to xDD
Been on stage: In middle school.
Gone skating: Nope.
Made homemade cookies: Only with my gradmother xD
Gone skinny dipping: ew... xD
Dyed your hair: No, but planning to.
Broken a bone: only on the fingers.
Been hospitalized overnight: yeah, for months actually.
Had your name appear in the newspaper: Nah xD
Published a story, poem, novel... Nope
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Would I be so stupid XD?
Gotten drunk or extremely intoxicated: No.
Been arrested: No... xD
Changed your name: I wish xDD
Changed your "look": yeah.. maybe....
Changed who you were to fit in: Never.
Traveled outside the country: I wish to...

Memories - The Past

Last Thing You Bought: A ring xD
Last Interesting Thing You Did: Nothinggg....
Last Interesting Thing You Heard: An ex-classmate of mine comitted suicide.
Last Interesting Thing You Said: I don't say ineteresting things xD
Last Interesting Thing You Saw: Don't remember xDDD
Last Thing You Touched: the keyboard XD
Last Thing You Had To Eat: Salad xD
Last Thing You Had To Drink: Cola
Last Thing You Watched On Tv: a 60s movie
Last Book You Read: Hamlet
Last Music You Listened To: Kaya
Last Movie You Saw: Nodame Chantabile
Last Movie You Saw On The Big Screen: Alexander the great [It sucked xDD]
Last Person You Called On The Phone: Nuna... quite some time ago xD
Last Person You Talked To Online: Nuna again xD
Last Person You Emailed: don't remember xD
Last Time You Cried: last month
Last Time You Smiled: last week I think...
Last Time You Laughed: don't remember XD
Last Person You Hugged: people don't like it when I hug them.
Last Person You Kissed: oh, please.....

The Future
Where do you see yourself in five years? Japan.
Describe your Dream Career: j-rock photographer xD?
What do you want to be when you grow up? I've already grown up...
What country would you most like to visit?: Japan
Where are you going to live?: Japan... yet again.

Miscellany
How many rings until you answer the phone?: I usually pick up right away.
What's on your mouse pad? Don't have one.
Do you like thunderstorms? I love them
Do you like snow? I love it.
How many houses have you lived in? 3 I think...
How many schools have you gone to? 3
Do you like to drive?: How can I like to drive when I don't know how XD
What color is your bedroom carpet?: Dunno... xD
If you were stranded on a desert island and you could only take one thing (not person) with you what would you take?: Computer obviously... xD
What was the best time of your life so far?: didn't have such a thing...

What is...

The last thought you go to sleep with: Will tommorow be worse?
Your first waking thoughts: Am I alive?
The first feature you notice in someone you just met: eyes.
Your best physical feature: Do I have such a thing xD??
Your greatest fear: Needles?
Your biggest weakness: beautiful things?
Your strongest attribute: Do I have such a thing xDD?
Your greatest accomplishment: Don't have one.... Oh, Kami-sama.... do I have anything at alll xDDD?
Your most cherished memory: Himitsu~

Moods
I Hurt: an ant XD
I Love: my best friend XD?
I Hate: everyone xD?
I Fear: hospitals *shivers*
I Hope: I'm not hoping about anything.
I Feel: angry
I LIsten: .. when I want to xD
I Hide: when I need to xDD
I Drive: For the third time, I don't drive !!!!!
I Play: with dolls ^___^
I Miss: some people...
I Learned: that filling in this thing is nerve-wrecking xD
I Know: nothing
I Wait: I never wait... it sucks
I Need: a new phone xD?
I Want: a new doll xD?

Meme and bitching

2008-06-07T17:20:58Z

Well, today's the long awaited Saturday!!~
today was supposed to be one hell of a good day,
well yeah... supposed

I'm honestly tired of all kind of crap going on.
If I look back on the calendar... I can't even aknowedge a day that has been good.

Everything's wrong.
School's a bitch.
My parents are hell.
My friends(?) are ignorant.
... I haven't smiled in ~~god~~ Mana knows how long...

Today was supposed to be my most relaxing day of the week.
... and what did I do? I only got angry and watched J-dramas all day.
I have so much to study, even tough biology's kinda over...
... but there still are Ethics, Spanish, History, Physics, Chemistry, Math.
... and how am I going to pull all of that together in one freaking week?!!

My head hurts like hell... I honestly prefer being in a depression over this. I can't relax my nerves whatever I try. But I swear, I'm never going to a hospital again, not even if all my blood leaks out. I've learned my lesson. Going to the freaking hospital is pure suicide.

And I can't talk to the people around me [I was going to type 'friends' but eh... no reason to lie, right?]... not even a bit...
One's like: "Hah..." the other: "OMG!!!! Are you okay?!!!!" [wtf is that supposed to mean?!], another: "Eh... oh~ oh! you should see what I bought!!"
And sometimes when some of them don't write me for WEEKS and I say hello first they're all like "Oh wow!!! I've missed you sooo muuuchhhh!!!!!!"
If you missed me so much, why the hell didn't you say a word?!

I've always thought I'll be alone no matter what I do.
Funny thing is that these past 2 years or so I've tried to convince myself that no one is truly alone.
... well now I just found out that I'm just foolish...
maybe I was right about being alone from the very start?
is this how somebody useless feels?...

Anyway, I've decided. I'm going to fully learn and practise the Hamlet dialogue I picked. I'm really going to try being an actor... Success is something important to me... My father told me that he's going to get me an audition by the end of the month... I'll try my best!

~*~
Anyways, I've decided to [finally] do the meme I was tagged.

1. Pick a hot guy...take a moment to think.
- Uh huh?
2. Is this really the guy you want?
- Is that really a question or you're kidding me?
3. Pick his top 10 hottest, cutest, most irresistible pictures
- *whines* Do they reaaaaalllyyyy have to be 10? *gets slapped* okaaay... okay
4. Tag 5 other users
No. Way. In. Bloody. Hell.
[do I have to mention this means I don't have anyone to tag xD?]

'Kay so let's start.... Mizushima Hiro!

*drools*

His smile is priceless ^_^

What a pretty angel he is, ne? ^^~

*melts*

... well they're not 10 but I'm lazy ^^'''

Meme-hime :D

2008-05-28T17:32:34Z

'kay so I got tagged by Pavli-chan XD
aaand here I go~

1. Once given a chance to meet a jrocker, who would u choose?
- Mana-hime ^.^

2. What would be the perfect date with this jrocker?
- The cemetery *laughs*

3. Are u sure , that this jrocker is the only one u d like to meet?
- of course not, I'm a fan of monogamy but... eh you know *laughs again*

4. If u could change sth on that jrocker, what would it be ?
- I would make him walk around naked *smirks* .. Does that count as a change :D?

5. Put 6 jrockers into a movie
- Mana, Kaya, Dada, Hizaki, Kalm, Shinya (Dollis-Marry)

6. Now give them roles
'kay so... Mana is the queen of the world *rofl* - everyone adores him *w* [well... not that he's not adored now :D]

Kaya is the princess which loves wearing french lace garters... and that's where Dada comes in...

He's the seller in the shop that Kaya goes to... but he's a pervert and watches him change,
Kalm however, who is Dada's lover, isn't happy that he has such a kink [a.k.a our cute little Kalm-chan is jealous :D]

Shin-chan is the right hand of the queen, and puts on Mana's make-up...
...dresses him up... *pictures it* *dies from hotness*

And Hizaki-hime is a dress model :D *goes off to watch*

7. Now put 6 friends of yours into a movie
- Hey, I don't have so much friends o_O
but... here we go - my nuna, Denny, Pavli-san, TenTen... and no more - 4 is my favorite number *giggles*

8. Now give them roles
My nuna and me are staff in various J-rock bands, but when the J-rockers are dressed scantily, we can't get concertrated enough to do the work right.

Kay, so portokal-chan is a graphic designer of J-rock websites...
and she makes them wrong on purpose so that the J-rockers will visit her more often to tell her what they want . :D

TenTen wants to be a dancer, but she gets kidnapped by aliens. Wow. I'll miss her. ~~Not~~.

Denny wants nothing more then to see Backstreet Boys. Ew. Well... since you know I suck as a person, and don't respect people's wishes - Denny ends up working here as a vet - no Backstreet Boys ever. I suck *laughs*

9. Who would u invite to the cinema ..chose one friend.
- My spider - Dada-sama II ^^

10. Who would u invite to the cinema..chose one jrocker
- Shin-chan, since if I invite Mana he'll keep silent and won't discuss the movie with me :D

11. Now imagine, u have a big problem..who would be the first of your friends to help u ?
- My doll - Alice (a.k.a Dada-sama III) ^^

12. There is bed weather outside..would u cancel your date with a famous jrocker or still go there?
- Huh? I adore bad weather ^^

13. Do u think those were stupid questions ?
- Stupid questions don't exsist, there are only stupid answers.

14. Now think about sth some seconds..
- Hai?

15. And now tag ppl on lj !
- I don't have enough friends ~~in real life~~ on lj to read this, so it's pointless :D

La Fin~

Meme-hime :D

2008-05-28T17:31:53Z

'kay so I got tagged by Pavli-chan XD
aaand here I go~

1. Once given a chance to meet a jrocker, who would u choose?
- Mana-hime ^.^

2. What would be the perfect date with this jrocker?
- The cemetery *laughs*

3. Are u sure , that this jrocker is the only one u d like to meet?
- of course not, I'm a fan of monogamy but... eh you know *laughs again*

4. If u could change sth on that jrocker, what would it be ?
- I would make him walk around naked *smirks* .. Does that count as a change :D?

5. Put 6 jrockers into a movie
- Mana, Kaya, Dada, Hizaki, Kalm, Shinya (Dollis-Marry)

6. Now give them roles
'kay so... Mana is the queen of the world *rofl* - everyone adores him *w* [well... not that he's not adored now :D]

Kaya is the princess which loves wearing french lace garters... and that's where Dada comes in...

He's the seller in the shop that Kaya goes to... but he's a pervert and watches him change,
Kalm however, who is Dada's lover, isn't happy that he has such a kink [a.k.a our cute little Kalm-chan is jealous :D]

Shin-chan is the right hand of the queen, and puts on Mana's make-up...
...dresses him up... *pictures it* *dies from hotness*

7. Now put 6 friends of yours into a movie
- Hey, I don't have so much friends o_O
but... here we go - my nuna, Denny, Pavli-san, TenTen... and no more - 4 is my favorite number *giggles*

8. Now give them roles
My nuna and me are staff in various J-rock bands, but when the J-rockers are dressed scantily, we can't get concertrated enough to do the work right.

Kay, so portokal-chan is a graphic designer of J-rock websites...
and she makes them wrong on purpose so that the J-rockers will visit her more often to tell her what they want . :D

TenTen wants to be a dancer, but she gets kidnapped by aliens. Wow. I'll miss her. ~~Not~~.

Denny wants nothing more then to see Backstreet Boys. Ew. Well... since you know I suck as a person, and don't respect people's wishes - Denny ends up working here as a vet - no Backstreet Boys ever. I suck *laughs*

9. Who would u invite to the cinema ..chose one friend.
- My spider - Dada-sama II ^^

10. Who would u invite to the cinema..chose one jrocker
- Shin-chan, since if I invite Mana he'll keep silent and won't discuss the movie with me :D

11. Now imagine, u have a big problem..who would be the first of your friends to help u ?
- My doll - Alice (a.k.a Dada-sama III) ^^

12. There is bed weather outside..would u cancel your date with a famous jrocker or still go there?
- Huh? I adore bad weather ^^

13. Do u think those were stupid questions ?
- Stupid questions don't exsist, there are only stupid answers.

14. Now think about sth some seconds..
- Hai?

15. And now tag ppl on lj !
- I don't have enough friends ~~in real life~~ on lj to read this, so it's pointless :D

La Fin~

Came back~

2008-05-25T14:48:35Z

Hello dears ^_^~

I haven't updated my journal for a long time, but I'll update more this time. ^_^
[not that a lot of people read it but, it's all a matter of principle]
well, under the cut is a fairly-short rant about my day XD

Hmm.. since I haven't talked about my bithday yet, maybe I'll make a quick review ^.^

I got a computer desk from my parents... and now I don't have to deal with such a cramped space anymore, it's next to the window and I can see the scenery [which is the only thing I like about this god-damn apartment].

I got a katana and a doll from my two friends ^__^

I have doubts how to name her tho... I'm wavering between Dada and Alice ...
[I'll name her Dada 99%... it's a matter of partiality XDD]

I won't post a pic of the katana 'cause it got a bit smeared =_=

Oh, and I got a new book ^__^~

"History of Japan" by my favorite professor, I also have other books by him, but I think this will be the most interesting. I've started reading it today, since my electricity was out for almost 2 hours

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I've decided to order a new poster. I got two Mana posters now, and I want a Kaya one this time. I don't like my walls to be full of posters, paintings and such, but I think that a third poster will be a nice touch.
The problem is I don't know which photo to pick... I'm wavering between three.. I've asked my friends and almost all pick the same picture.. I don't honestly know... I've even tought about the possibility of ordering a Hizaki poster instead of Kaya... damn I should have picked by now...

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I'm thinking now and... god, I have so much things to do, and I still sit around and do nothing. I have to study for my Ethics exam and my Biology tests, let's not forget I have to finish learning the katakana chart and start with the kanji studies... and ~~god~~ Mana knows what else...

.. Oh, I talked to my mother today... she says she'll think about buying me platforms...
Damn, I'm so irritated about that... I hate depending on someone, especially her... but I have no choise when she still gives me money...
I'm thinking more and more about a job now ... people from a site from my town have said that they need translators... and since it's the only thing I can do good, I think I'll apply for the job... I wonder what will come out of it, but I'm just so sick of someone else giving me money and thinking that I'll do whatever ~~she~~ they say.

Sorry, this got kind of long ^^''
Well, I'll end it here
See you later, sweethearts <3

Happy birthday, Mana~

2008-03-19T21:42:43Z

It's finally time for me to say...

... Happy birthday ~~GOD~~Mana~

Happy Birthday to the most amazing person in the world...
.. I can't imagine my life without him, without his music, without his art.

We all love you Mana-sama, you should always be the kind of person you are now, you should always go forward and please your fans like you do now...
I have no words to express my gratitude towards you, everything I say will still be too little to actually describe what I'm thinking...

and most of all, thank you for everything you do, thank you for making me believe that a perfect person does really exist <3

I don't know why, but my post seems so gloomy... but I'm as happy as can be.. I guess I could never express myself emotionally, whatever I do it just turns out morbid...but, once again omedetou otanjoubi gozaimasu, Mana-san~

saso_kun @ 2008-03-10T10:21:00

2008-03-10T08:27:16Z

Well, since I have a sudden attraction to photography I've decided to post some of my photos.

I took this picture in a very random moment, me and my friend were just exiting the library when I saw how beautiful the light was going down the stairs.

This one I took from the psychologist's window

and this one on my way home, infront of my apartment building

saso_kun @ 2008-01-27T11:39:00

2008-01-27T09:55:22Z

Did you know I'm the happiest person alive? XD
Doushite? 'cause I got my Nocturnal Opera original CD *w*
My favorite album *_* and my first original J-rock thing, I hope I'm gonna get more in the future :D~
I'd be damned if I don't take a picture of it, so I'm gonna post it later XDD
I'm in love with the photobook *__*
God, who knew that even a person like me could be so happy :DD